Timing is Everything

"Time will do the talking, years will do the walking, I just find a comfy spot and I wait it out - Time will tell you baby, what you can't hear now" -Patty Griffin

It's sometimes amazing to me how much comes down to timing. Career, relationships, getting a good parking spot - if you're not in the right place at the right time it may not happen.

I've been mulling over the whole timing thing lately. It's hard for my inner control freak to accept the fact that I might not be in charge of how things come out in the end. Of course, I have an impact on the outcome, but when I comes down to it I'm just a player in this crazy thing called life. Once I learn to let go of the reigns I am a much happier person.

I'm in Denver this week for work. Things are done, getting ready to have our little walk-through of the event and start the ball rolling. It should be fun. Then I get to spend a little time with my family who lives here, which I am really looking forward to.

Looking out my hotel room window to the mountains is pretty cool. I am very thankful that I get to do what I love and see places like this - even if I will mostly see the inside of a hotel for the next 5 days straight. It almost makes me not miss what I have waiting for me at home. Almost.

I'll try and post more from the Mile High City - hope that I don't get an altitude headache like I did the last time I was here.

Clarity

“It may not be the way I would have chosen when you lead me through a world that’s not my home, but You never said it would be easy…You only said I’d never go alone” --Ginny Owens

I don’t regret a minute of it. And I’m ok. Really, truly, not lying to anyone or myself. Believe me, I’ve searched to the innermost depths and I am just fine in this place.

I can’t say that I totally understand the purpose behind the events of the last few weeks. Maybe it was for me to see where I stand and for what I won’t stand. Or to remind me that there is hope, there is a plan, there is a purpose. Even if I don’t always get it. I know what’s in my heart. I believe in myself and know what’s true.

Oh, you all warned me because you love me. I love you for that. Thanks for letting me talk it out and not judging me for doing what my heart told me to do. My decision to take a risk even if it might hurt a little along the way was the right one. Sometimes you have to be broken to find out who you are. Funny thing is, I’m not anywhere near broken. That saying “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,” as annoying as it may be when you feel like the world is crashing down on you, is actually pretty true. I’m stronger for the things I’ve walked through.

What will be will be. That’s all I know, and for now it’s enough.